Lunchtime musings.

it's been a while since i last blogged. Been going through some personal stuff. Growing up a lot faster than i wanted to. Now am back, made peace with my issues and got my head screwed back to it's right place.I know you may be a tad bit curious about what am talking about but all i will say is you will find out soon enough. Anyway, am seated at my desk, the lights have gone off, so no work for now and i can't heat my food because the frigging microwave doesn't run on charcoal. Am hungry, really hungry but i can just hope that the water am steadily gulping will do the trick.Am in thought...none in particular but my mind feels busy. Am thinking of the future, something i have been doing for quite a while now.In 4 months time my life will change, radically change and if i can't grow up soon enough, i will be in trouble...the grown up kind of trouble, not the i haven't read for my tomorrow's exam kind of trouble. It's the adult trouble that many find themselves in. But am lucky. Lucky that i got superman beside me and a supportive family. Not many can say that so am grateful to God for that.Am also thinking of what next year holds for me..I will be a changed person and i may have to postpone my going back to school due to the changes i have refused to explain above.Anyway, am loving my job, enjoying my today's dream. Never thought that a few months after cramming and spending sleepless nights with my then lover- the Microbiology textbook, that i would land in the writers world, rubbing shoulders with people i had always been in awe of since i delved into the world of books. So am where i wanna be for now, my restless spirit is calm....until the itch strikes and i have to grow.
Am also thinking of my mum. God bless her dear soul.I may shudder when she directs her furious spectacled gaze at me but when worst comes to worst, she has my back.
Am also thinking that i should rid myself of this phobia to get close to people.I have many friends but few close friends.By close friends am referring to those whom I would be comfortable  around  enough to break down and cry.The crying is rare and if you find me crying, probably my heart has been torn out of it's cage and crushed into little pieces. Well, now it's time to reach out more....or maybe not.
Well, lights are back on...gotta rush to the kitchen before i have to wait for 20 people before i get to heat my food. want to know what am having for lunch?

Yeah...that's what am having.In case it's not so clear to you, it's mashed potatoes and meat.....and Yes i love food.Nothing comes between me and food, or me and a man who can cook hehe! i can cook a mean dish too.
Happy lunch hour pals.